A milestone to recovery

Finally had the courage to go out today.  Actually i went back to college yesterday but I felt terrible. Like my self esteem was really low. My face was red and patchy. It didn't help that someone came up to me and asked me what's wrong. I mean. It's not her fault that she doesn't know what eczema is, I just felt really awkward about my skin condition. What hurts the most was when she said "oh, your skin normally isn't like this."

I just wanted to dig a hole in the ground to hide. Each day, or rather every night, I tell myself. "I believe God will heal me one day. He will heal me." I guess I just have to learn to trust.  Which is a very difficult thing when you're stuck in a painful situation.

The strange thing was He did speak to me through someone at a youth camp a few years back that He is going to heal me. I just don't know when.

This morning when I woke up, my face was not as red. I definitely have to give God glory for that! I believe God is in the midst of healing.  We just have to trust. I know satan wouldn't like this post or me at all as I am giving God glory. Nothing can snatch me from God's loving arms.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I just wanna thank You so much for calming my skin down. I know You are in the midst of healing me. I believe and I claim on Your promise. Father, I pray for the person reading my blog. They might be here as they are desperate to find healing or even they found this blog by accident. Father, I pray that You will touch their hearts and let them experience You personally. I know it's hard to trust but Father, I pray that You'll be merciful and Your holy spirit will touch their hearts. Thank You father for the opportunity to share Your love through this blog.
In Jesus' name.  Amen!

Xoxo

Eczema Beauty

Inspiration for this blog

My skin has been flaring up quite badly. My face, knees arms and back of legs has been really red and inflamed.I don't know if it is the weather. Or just my skin being angry... 

It started out because of the stress from the exams. Now they would't just go away. :( I have been so helpless the past few days. Sometimes I even cry seeing there isn't much I can do to actually get rid of eczema. This inspired me to create this blog to rant, or even to share my experiences. I know God is real. But sometimes, I can't help but wonder what is He up to? Or why does He not want to heal?

I will keep holding on. 

It is hard being an eczema being. I actually feel less than a human being. I really want to be normal. At times, I look enviously at my friends who have normal skin able to wear the nicest clothes. Here I am stuck with jeans/long pants to cover up my battle wounds so as to prevent people from commenting. I realised I am living in a different world. Not many people understand the world I am living in. Not even my parents. It is hard being someone with eczema. Sometimes when the flare up is so bad, I actually feel embarrassed that people have to actually put up with an eyesore like me. 

Dear God, I know You are reading this. I really pray that You will help me come to love myself and others. It is hard. I don't know why You allow this to happen but I really pray for Your guidance and understanding. Teach me what I should do to be healed. Father, I also pray for the person who is reading this post. I know it was not a coincidence that they are reading this right now. They might be looking for a cure or just an answer to the question that they may have. Father, I pray that You will touch their heart and provide the answer that they may be searching for. Thank you for sending Your son to die on the cross for our sins. I know and claim on the promise that by His stripes, we are healed. So father, I look forward to the day where I will be fully healed and clothed in Your righteousness, to become the beauty that You want me to be.

In Jesus' name we pray, Amen!

xoxo

Eczema Beauty