Topical Steroid Withdrawal

So it has been quite awhile since I updated this blog. I honestly must admit, I almost forgot the existence of this blog till today, I received an email notification of a comment from a fellow eczema suffer who has benefitted from what I have shared through this blog.

I know I have been away for a really long time. I have lots to update you guys. Basically, 391 days ago, I made the decision to completely stay away from steroids. It's called Topical Steroid Withdrawal (TSW). I realised that my skin NEVER got better whenever I followed the doctors' instructions to apply topical steroid.

It was journey of faith. Trusting that God will heal me. The first few months of TSW was hell. My skin was addicted to steroids and it was like withdrawing from a drug addiction. My skin felt like it was burning. It was red and raw. It is so easy to feel completely helpless and lousy about yourself in that state. I thank God that He has been faithful and good to me.

391 days later, my skin is so much more manageable. It has been the best I ever remember it to be. Eczema wasn't the problem. Steroids prescribed by doctors made it seem like a problem. There are many misinformed eczema warriors out there. I pray that they will be healed from eczema.

Dear Heavenly Father,

I thank You so much for always being there for me. For seeing me through the darkest seasons of my life. Father, I thank you for healing me and getting me through TSW. I pray that You will continue to empower me to boldly proclaim Your love and goodness in this dark and chaotic world. Father, I commit all the other eczema warriors into Your hands. Only You would know and understand the complete exasperation that we feel from time to time. I pray that You will strengthen us and help us through each day. Help us see ourselves in a way that You see us - Way beyond our skin.  Father, I pray that you will surround and bless each and every eczema warrior who may be searching for answers. May You reveal it to us in Your time. Thank You Father for this opportunity to share my life experience with the world. May it be a blessing to whoever who may come across this post.

In Jesus' Name we pray,
Amen!

Xoxo
Eczema Beauty

Blessed Christmas

I always loved Christmas! For me, it is the beginning of something Awesome (the Salvation plan) that Christ has for us. Skin update... It is still red, itchy and patchy. Fashion update... Still the usual jeans/ long pants with a blouse.

Still not brave enough to show the world my battle scars. It is hard. It is painful. Most of all, it is itchy. I am sure many eczema sufferers out there will know how I feel... The rest of the world will think I am strange and they will never understand no matter how much I try to explain. :(

There's gonna be a healing service at All Saint's Anglican Church on the 28th Dec at 9am. I don't know if I should go for it. Mom says I should pray about it...

I do wanna get healed. But a part of me feels that if eczema is what God gave me so that I could blog and reach out to other people for Him. Then I would 'bite the bullet' and live with it to the best I can depending on Him for strength. I don't wanna sugar coat it or elude people into thinking that a Christian life is easy and does not require commitment on their part....

I digressed a lot. Here's wishing you and your loved ones a Merry Christmas! May the love, joy & peace of Christ be with you and your loved ones always~

Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank You for sending your only beloved son on Earth many years ago to die for our sins. Father, I know that You loved each and everyone of us. Though I cannot understand why You may allow others to suffer more, I pray that You will give them the strength and courage to overcome it. Father, I pray that You will teach us to trust You when times get tough and to hold on to Your promise that You will never leave us nor forsake us and we can freely call upon Your name for help. Father, I know it is not a coincidence that this person is reading my blog. I pray that You will let them experience You and Your love. Help me not to itch so much.

In Jesus' name we pray,
Amen!

Xoxo
Eczema Beauty

Inspiration for this blog

My skin has been flaring up quite badly. My face, knees arms and back of legs has been really red and inflamed.I don't know if it is the weather. Or just my skin being angry... 

It started out because of the stress from the exams. Now they would't just go away. :( I have been so helpless the past few days. Sometimes I even cry seeing there isn't much I can do to actually get rid of eczema. This inspired me to create this blog to rant, or even to share my experiences. I know God is real. But sometimes, I can't help but wonder what is He up to? Or why does He not want to heal?

I will keep holding on. 

It is hard being an eczema being. I actually feel less than a human being. I really want to be normal. At times, I look enviously at my friends who have normal skin able to wear the nicest clothes. Here I am stuck with jeans/long pants to cover up my battle wounds so as to prevent people from commenting. I realised I am living in a different world. Not many people understand the world I am living in. Not even my parents. It is hard being someone with eczema. Sometimes when the flare up is so bad, I actually feel embarrassed that people have to actually put up with an eyesore like me. 

Dear God, I know You are reading this. I really pray that You will help me come to love myself and others. It is hard. I don't know why You allow this to happen but I really pray for Your guidance and understanding. Teach me what I should do to be healed. Father, I also pray for the person who is reading this post. I know it was not a coincidence that they are reading this right now. They might be looking for a cure or just an answer to the question that they may have. Father, I pray that You will touch their heart and provide the answer that they may be searching for. Thank you for sending Your son to die on the cross for our sins. I know and claim on the promise that by His stripes, we are healed. So father, I look forward to the day where I will be fully healed and clothed in Your righteousness, to become the beauty that You want me to be.

In Jesus' name we pray, Amen!

xoxo

Eczema Beauty