Oral Steroids

It's been awhile since I updated this blog. Well, there's just simply so many things to update on. So basically, I've been put on a dose of oral steroids because my eczema flared up pretty bad. Although the steroids are supposed to suppress the inflammation, they give other side effects such as mood swings, moon face, body aches... basically it messes with your body. At times I just don't feel like my normal self anymore and it's frustrating.

It frustrates me that I could not put all that I'm experiencing fully into words. Yes I find it so hard and I question God asking Him why He puts me through this. I'm physically, psychologically and emotionally exhausted.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I'm calling out to You. Only You know what I'm going thru right now. I pray for forgiveness for lacking in the faith. I pray that You'll deliver me and help me through. Only You know how much I want to be called back Home.  Father, help me seek You in this difficult time. I pray that even in this trial, You would use me and my suffering to touch the lives if other people.
In Jesus' name we pray,
Amen

Xoxo
Eczema Beauty

Confessions of an Eczema Sufferer

I had one of the worse flare ups I had thus far. Last night slightly after midnight I felt so itchy. Practically like a 'crazy woman' as I had no control over the itch. It was just so itchy! After battling an itch that lasted for what seemed hours, it prompted me post the confessions on an eczema sufferer on my social networking site.

Confessions of an Eczema Sufferer
I wish I was normal. You have no idea how envious I am of people with normal skin. I wish I didn't inflict harm on my skin whenever I itch uncontrollably leaving (battle) scars. I wish I didn't have to feel embarrassed when people ask me what's wrong with my skin. Most of all, I wish there was a cure for eczema. And for all these reasons, I struggle. I struggle to love myself.

This is me. One of the many fighters against eczema.

I am normally so optimistic and I never really liked showing others my weakness. But i guess the flare up yesterday really humbled me. I mean normal people wouldn't understand what it was like to have eczema and I was crazy enough to want them to know what it was like. I am thankful for the support and encouragement coming in from my loved ones. Many of them reassured me of the healing that was on the way coming from God.

When I first started this blog, I was afraid. Afraid of what people would think. But I now understand that God planted the idea of creating this blog to write about my eczema journey for His glory. Today will be the day that I will be sharing the link of the blog with the public.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I just want to thank You for Your love and mercies towards me thus far. Thank you for sending people to remind me of Your love and to encourage me in this journey of faith. Father, I know there is a reason why you gave me eczema. The healing process is on its way and when it comes, it will bring glory to Your name. Father, I pray for courage and wisdom to care for my body in the way You would want me to. Father, I also commit other eczema fighters into Your hands. I pray for Your divine intervention and healing in Your time. I pray that whoever reads this blog will be blessed by You and go away experiencing Your love and peace. Thank You Father for you unending love and grace to me.
In Jesus' name we pray,
Amen!

Xoxo
Eczema beauty

Inspiration for this blog

My skin has been flaring up quite badly. My face, knees arms and back of legs has been really red and inflamed.I don't know if it is the weather. Or just my skin being angry... 

It started out because of the stress from the exams. Now they would't just go away. :( I have been so helpless the past few days. Sometimes I even cry seeing there isn't much I can do to actually get rid of eczema. This inspired me to create this blog to rant, or even to share my experiences. I know God is real. But sometimes, I can't help but wonder what is He up to? Or why does He not want to heal?

I will keep holding on. 

It is hard being an eczema being. I actually feel less than a human being. I really want to be normal. At times, I look enviously at my friends who have normal skin able to wear the nicest clothes. Here I am stuck with jeans/long pants to cover up my battle wounds so as to prevent people from commenting. I realised I am living in a different world. Not many people understand the world I am living in. Not even my parents. It is hard being someone with eczema. Sometimes when the flare up is so bad, I actually feel embarrassed that people have to actually put up with an eyesore like me. 

Dear God, I know You are reading this. I really pray that You will help me come to love myself and others. It is hard. I don't know why You allow this to happen but I really pray for Your guidance and understanding. Teach me what I should do to be healed. Father, I also pray for the person who is reading this post. I know it was not a coincidence that they are reading this right now. They might be looking for a cure or just an answer to the question that they may have. Father, I pray that You will touch their heart and provide the answer that they may be searching for. Thank you for sending Your son to die on the cross for our sins. I know and claim on the promise that by His stripes, we are healed. So father, I look forward to the day where I will be fully healed and clothed in Your righteousness, to become the beauty that You want me to be.

In Jesus' name we pray, Amen!

xoxo

Eczema Beauty