Confessions of an Eczema Sufferer

I had one of the worse flare ups I had thus far. Last night slightly after midnight I felt so itchy. Practically like a 'crazy woman' as I had no control over the itch. It was just so itchy! After battling an itch that lasted for what seemed hours, it prompted me post the confessions on an eczema sufferer on my social networking site.

Confessions of an Eczema Sufferer
I wish I was normal. You have no idea how envious I am of people with normal skin. I wish I didn't inflict harm on my skin whenever I itch uncontrollably leaving (battle) scars. I wish I didn't have to feel embarrassed when people ask me what's wrong with my skin. Most of all, I wish there was a cure for eczema. And for all these reasons, I struggle. I struggle to love myself.

This is me. One of the many fighters against eczema.

I am normally so optimistic and I never really liked showing others my weakness. But i guess the flare up yesterday really humbled me. I mean normal people wouldn't understand what it was like to have eczema and I was crazy enough to want them to know what it was like. I am thankful for the support and encouragement coming in from my loved ones. Many of them reassured me of the healing that was on the way coming from God.

When I first started this blog, I was afraid. Afraid of what people would think. But I now understand that God planted the idea of creating this blog to write about my eczema journey for His glory. Today will be the day that I will be sharing the link of the blog with the public.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I just want to thank You for Your love and mercies towards me thus far. Thank you for sending people to remind me of Your love and to encourage me in this journey of faith. Father, I know there is a reason why you gave me eczema. The healing process is on its way and when it comes, it will bring glory to Your name. Father, I pray for courage and wisdom to care for my body in the way You would want me to. Father, I also commit other eczema fighters into Your hands. I pray for Your divine intervention and healing in Your time. I pray that whoever reads this blog will be blessed by You and go away experiencing Your love and peace. Thank You Father for you unending love and grace to me.
In Jesus' name we pray,
Amen!

Xoxo
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A milestone to recovery

Finally had the courage to go out today.  Actually i went back to college yesterday but I felt terrible. Like my self esteem was really low. My face was red and patchy. It didn't help that someone came up to me and asked me what's wrong. I mean. It's not her fault that she doesn't know what eczema is, I just felt really awkward about my skin condition. What hurts the most was when she said "oh, your skin normally isn't like this."

I just wanted to dig a hole in the ground to hide. Each day, or rather every night, I tell myself. "I believe God will heal me one day. He will heal me." I guess I just have to learn to trust.  Which is a very difficult thing when you're stuck in a painful situation.

The strange thing was He did speak to me through someone at a youth camp a few years back that He is going to heal me. I just don't know when.

This morning when I woke up, my face was not as red. I definitely have to give God glory for that! I believe God is in the midst of healing.  We just have to trust. I know satan wouldn't like this post or me at all as I am giving God glory. Nothing can snatch me from God's loving arms.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I just wanna thank You so much for calming my skin down. I know You are in the midst of healing me. I believe and I claim on Your promise. Father, I pray for the person reading my blog. They might be here as they are desperate to find healing or even they found this blog by accident. Father, I pray that You will touch their hearts and let them experience You personally. I know it's hard to trust but Father, I pray that You'll be merciful and Your holy spirit will touch their hearts. Thank You father for the opportunity to share Your love through this blog.
In Jesus' name.  Amen!

Xoxo

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